I have offered to Hermes my aid, if she needs it. I suppose this is a more formal way, as well, of saying that I offer it to you as well, though my condition still stands. [ regarding his father, regarding killing him. everything else they've spoken about in the beginning. beyond that - a necessary deception in order to maintain the status quo ....
ah, but isn't this no different from the using the same tactics he's perfected from being borne in such a troublesome family? who knew that they'd be useful now? when he was haruno shiobana, he loathed having to use similar methods of pretend to ensure the status quo remains protected while suffering. now that he's years away from that and is living under a different name, he finds himself reaching to that same cache of skills if he wanted to be able to stop a different kind of father, to win a game that is bigger than his dreams have ever been.
but he finds himself thinking of what heaven is to him, and he is worried. people died for him. is that what heaven would be for -
- no. no, that kind of thinking is not his own. it's borne from his anxieties and furthermore, is a product of someone else's fervent obsession with the mystical and the profane. he will purge it out of his mind. he will only include in his thoughts what he views is necessary or what he feels is relevant to his interests.
giorno leans his head on his chin, pensive.
and for all of that to happen, he has to get stronger. he has to. he must. there is no other option. not only for his dreams, but for those who rely on him as well. ]
And ... I'm sorry, too.
[ he hesitates about this, but then quietly, he adds. ] I don't know why I said that. I haven't done anything but be a nuisance to you.
I feel I should say it, anyway. I ... [ "you will never hear it from my father," he wants to say, but then jotaro probably wouldn't want to hear that from him too, and he grows quiet. ashamed as to how, for all of the way giorno talks so much, he couldn't find the words he needed right now, and he feels vulnerable. ]
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I have offered to Hermes my aid, if she needs it. I suppose this is a more formal way, as well, of saying that I offer it to you as well, though my condition still stands.
[ regarding his father, regarding killing him. everything else they've spoken about in the beginning. beyond that - a necessary deception in order to maintain the status quo ....
ah, but isn't this no different from the using the same tactics he's perfected from being borne in such a troublesome family? who knew that they'd be useful now? when he was haruno shiobana, he loathed having to use similar methods of pretend to ensure the status quo remains protected while suffering. now that he's years away from that and is living under a different name, he finds himself reaching to that same cache of skills if he wanted to be able to stop a different kind of father, to win a game that is bigger than his dreams have ever been.
but he finds himself thinking of what heaven is to him, and he is worried. people died for him. is that what heaven would be for -
- no. no, that kind of thinking is not his own. it's borne from his anxieties and furthermore, is a product of someone else's fervent obsession with the mystical and the profane. he will purge it out of his mind. he will only include in his thoughts what he views is necessary or what he feels is relevant to his interests.
giorno leans his head on his chin, pensive.
and for all of that to happen, he has to get stronger. he has to. he must. there is no other option. not only for his dreams, but for those who rely on him as well. ]
And ... I'm sorry, too.
[ he hesitates about this, but then quietly, he adds. ] I don't know why I said that. I haven't done anything but be a nuisance to you.
I feel I should say it, anyway. I ... [ "you will never hear it from my father," he wants to say, but then jotaro probably wouldn't want to hear that from him too, and he grows quiet. ashamed as to how, for all of the way giorno talks so much, he couldn't find the words he needed right now, and he feels vulnerable. ]